Kadang-kadang aku rasa macam aku dah tak betul lak jadiknya... -.-' kenapa aa~? aku pun nak gak jatuh cinta macam orang lain. Nak gak rasa sayang kat orang. Nak gak bemanja ngan orang y aku sayang tu. >///< hehe.. tapi.. bila 'dia' datang kat aku luahkan rasa hati 'dia', kenapa aku tak rasa pape aa~? hati aku membeku terus je time tuh. Otak aku terus blank. Hitam. Kosong. Tak rase pape langsung. Bila aku baca novel cinta atau pun manga yang penuh dengan ayat2 cinta, hati aku terus terusik. :D Rasa macam bodoh pun ada.... -.-
Bila tengok anime, aku jadik betul2 rindu nak rasa orang sayang aku lagi. Lebih2 lagi bila tengok cite tu Sword Art Online, tengok betapa sayangnya Asuna kat Kirito. Betapa sayangnya Kirito kat Asuna. Jeles lak aku tengok.. ^^'' Mungkin betul kata kawan aku, hati aku dah jadik ais batu. Keras. Sejuk. Walaupun cair, tetap gak 'cold'. Tak rasa pape. Kebas. Kebal. Kaku. Kosong..kosong..kosong..
Hei.. you.. the one that fall for me.. what are you feeling right now? Did you hurt? Did you feel sick? Did you know that my heart did not feel anything? Do you? I am sorry.. really.. really.. really sorry.. >_<' Me too.. want to love you the way you did, but.. -look at my own hand- it's cold.. pile.. feels nothing.. -.-~ -holds my head- I'm really sorry.. really very sorry to disappoint you.. really very sorry to turn your feeling down.. >_<
Somehow.. deep in my heart.. it's hurt a bit.. there's nothing I can do except apologize.. yeah.. I remember that hurt feeling. It's when someone rejected my confession.. x//D
maa.. ii yo.. daijobu desu yo, konna ni.. ima kara, just need to face forward. kowa ku nai yo.. nee~ ^__^
